I should’ve been lucky I haven’t been to a great extent…

likewise I am alive and have been fortunate enough to capitalize…

that’s where the skill and ability come in to play…

A baseball player starts with luck but must capitalize on that luck with skill…

Like all we know, to have, get all I want…

Life is almost over, not complete because I feel like I haven’t started much to complete, but I’ve written quite a bit but not released to much to show accomplishment…

but I wasn’t wealthy to begin with nor middle class, but I could act like I was, instead…many do… Mother kept us content…

Never been told I had to get a job and what the job was supposed to be…

my mother once suggested a job as an engineer…

there are so many positions within the broad blanket of jobs title qualifying engineer; Sanitation Engineer…

She might have imagined something more important than just garbage collector…

The job I should’ve settled for was a plebeian gig with no hope…

a Subway conductor…or a con ed manager…pretty much what I ended up with… But I settled for wanted to do, I went for what I enjoyed doing… Minus the hope…

Hope for what?

Retirement…

A great treasure?

Who benefited?

A recent article pointed out the wealth we hope for is a benefit, the wealth and benefit others result from is luck…

We should always be ready for the benefits that seem to never come…

I’ve stepped in this hole before…

So many have been here in a deeper hope than I am in now… No where near the worst…

But I want better, who doesn’t, I’ve had better, I want better…I write my way out of this and try imagine the potential for me to capitalize on…

Capitalize on luck, develop skill…